Enjoying the Last Month of 2010!!

Surprisingly, I got  a reply today, after sending the email on Sun. Came as no surprise that is was a plain NO (in a rather sarcastic way :) )
But, I don't feel sad or anything, just glad though that I am finally going to totally move on :)

Sent over the scientific article (though  i'm doubtful of it myself). Got to go for another interview tomorrow, and might just accept it for the mean time as the location is super convenient. Hahaha, back to the same location.

Have been contemplating to go and get some books. Or maybe I should finish reading all those at home first. Enjoying my TV time and the longer sleeping hours. Pounds have been adding up as well (on me of course).

I feel so motivated this week!!! :D

Thursday, I'll be heading out for another interview before joining in a /K/ gathering in IKEA! Will be getting a taste of the new "Lancer" when Fire sends me home.

CIAOZ...

Summarizing a week of life as a useless person

The week went on as planned, though slightly better than I expected...

By Wednesday, I had  nearly  7 calls for interviews- all for sales :'( and one for Writing!!! Gotta get some materials sent over, sigh. Thursday was spent on 3 interviews, and got offers but then all were practically useless!!!! Went to temple later in the evening with cleo, and she looked at me and laughed. She told me I am just downgrading myself if I am going to join these places. Gosh, I feel so stupid :'(

Friday, I was just laughing at my fate. Guess I am already accepting the fact that I might be jobless and might end up in the same loop. Instead of regretting, laughing at myself seems nicer I guess. Went out with some colleagues or ex-coll :'( for dinner. Had a good time :)....Would have proceeded to the next stop, but arghh too late to catch a taxi home should I have gone.

Saturday- went for another screwed up interview. The guy needs an answer by monday on whether I would like to join them or not...sat the entire day thinking if I should send an email or not.Took me a couple of minutes to draft it out, and haven't sent it till now. No guts, like totally! Or perhaps I am afraid of rejection? It's just a YES or No. If it's a YES- I am the luckiest person and if it's a NO-well just move on. But then...

1 hour to Sunday and I am still contemplating on whether I should send the email or not. Will be meeting Fuza and Cleo in the morning, and three of us would be off to the temple. Then not sure where.

Plans for the following week:-
Monday: Try my luck elsewhere
Tuesday: See if anything comes up...
Wednesday: Sit and cry that it's Dec and I'm ending the year as a loser ???

Time to reminisce 2010, all the good/bad/ups and downs that happened. And time to also make some plans and set some goals for 2011. Just praying for a better something. Life seems so empty right now. I have nothing, nobody,and well I am practically useless now :'(

Getting too emotional right now, time to snooze away and dream something nice and happy instead...

Back to Square One

Spent my Monday with Hapit, Rathi, Jag...Went to check out the new outlets in SG XD...

As 4 of us sat there, sipping by our drinks(which were all overpriced and lousy), we started talking on Social Network...If only any of us had this extremely great idea that could rake in millions,hmm... Rathi and Hapit then told me, why not start writing a book on all of us :D One chapter on each of us, and we could easily pull off 5 chapters. Sounds good, hahahaha

Anyway, everyone's back to work and Jag is back to Cyber. That leaves me all alone at home once again. Damn I hate myself for putting myself in such a position. I despised staying home all alone and it makes me go crazy. Imagine from morning till night, just my cat, the TV and my computer, up to I dont know when :'(

Why is it no one ever invented a time machine? At least I could reverse back time...

Got a few choices though- just accept any job, even if it's a part time job doing roadshows, promoters or whatsoever? Or back to call centers aka customer service? Been there, done that all, and  moved on to other things only to end there back? Not sure if it's a good idea, but at least I'll have something to do.

The fear of being all alone for God knows how many hours, without having anything to do

A man's errors are his portals of discovery~James Joyce

Well MISTAKES - :D   It happens and it's unavoidable. Nobody is perfect and sometimes we  make wrong judgement in life. I made one, though this changed a lot of things. Made me penniless, direction-less and well totally empty :)

And yes I am still smiling...

Went to FV on Thursday to get all the paperworks done with.   Was asked to sign the contract there and then. I read through and signed it (was perhaps possessed when I signed it).  Then the lady starts telling about the benefits and all. And how I felt I was so dumb to get into there. Damn. Got myself into a 2 year "slave contract". Not allowed to leave or whatever within that period and if i am fired, I have to compensate them back? Cool!

Dec 2010- Nov 2012

Left with all the other stuffs to be done-med check up and all. Went home, sat down and talked with a few people-all who said I should get myself out of the contract before the commencement date. I was so lost- should i leave it, i'm back to square one without anything, or should I accept it- I might be doomed for life. Upto Nov 2012, pheww!

At that time, only regrets was left. But somehow I felt- I was stupid, made stupid moves, but hey at least I learned. Just move on, get out of the contract and start all over again"...

So plans of the week-
Mon -time to go and get the contract cancelled (by telling them some sad stories)...Then try to start looking for other opportunities. Perhaps join cleo and fuz was dinner.
Tuesday and Wednesday - Sit at home and think positively...Watch movies :) And pray for the best
Thursday - Off to temple with cleo...
Friday - thank God that another week is over. Join cleo and fuz for dinner perhaps.
Sat & Sun - Pray for a better week ahead :)

Changes that happened in split seconds

So yest was holiday, but for me it's a longer one...Still sinking in on the fact I am officially jobless now. 

No point looking back. Went by to collect my things today morning, and then realised what a freak octopus is. Not a goodbye or good luck, nothing at all. Real freak indeed. 

He made me feel so pissed, just got my things and walked off. Someone then asked me why i resigned and where I am off too, I just gave some fast answers and escaped. Did not wanna cry. 

Sat down and was waiting for fuza and cleo, then bumped into someone. Asked for a reference letter and said goodbye. Have some plans later with Cleo and trying to make more plans to keep me away from home. If I am at home, all I'll end up doing is regretting and thinking too much.

Then got the call from the school as well. Was asked to come in and sign my contract- 2 years, pheww, scary.

And I've got to sign it by 2ml or sat. less than 48 hours to think it over. Heart says otherwise, mind says I have no option, and rationally this might be my only option for now or I'll have to wait up to Jan till all the places start hiring. I might go crazy by then. Need to really go to temple, and try to find inspiration. Life is full of challenges, perhaps I should embrace it with an open mind. 

Then I'll have another 2 weeks before I join in, should I sign the contract, New start. Gosh, 6 months, and I tried picking up so many things on a new industry from zero to somewhere and now back to zero. Kinda sick of it but as I said, life is a challenge in itself.

Telling myself to move on. 

Nothing but regrets...

I resigned, signed off and its over! Am I happy?-NO!


By the end of the day, I felt stupid and even stupider...I feel like a stupid young kid who is just so bad in making decisions as well as rash in doing things...


I hate my job, and I really do. But I like everything else. There was nothing to fret about, absolutely nothing. I liked the environment and people the best. Mixed, diverse and balanced.


Got 2/3 weeks to sit at home and do nothing but regret. Then gotta think if I am really serious about joining this new place. Everything is on there but my instincts says otherwise. Being tied up to a 2 year contract is not something favorable either, especially when you don't know a thing about the place. It's different from RM, it's school, so it obviously is. All ladies, and way older than I am...phewwwwwwwwww
Bosses are ladies as well and one scared me to be honest but then gave me the offer...


I think I really wanted to get off my present job, that I just accepted her offer and tendered here. But then, later I felt so stupid as I don't even know if I wanna really work there. Job sounds interesting, but then anything can be made to sound interesting. And 6 months in RM, and should i decide to ditch this new place, then my CV is gonna look really bad on me :(. Hoped to have at least stayed in RM for a year but the job made me depressed day by day. Tried and hoped for a transfer, but knew that it was never gonna happen with some one there.


Well I don't wanna make a wrong move once again. Gotta rethink and rediscover things. After learning so much about an industry, it's tough to move one and go into an absolute new industry. 


Now, if only I had the time machine. I could reverse back my actions and perhaps carry on like normal? XD
I wish...

LLI-Low Latent Inhibition

This is a symptom of LLi :

1. You see more, hear more, better smell and feel better through touch contact. Without conscious effort, your mind has a greater intake of information. After facing all forms of stimulation (which appeals to you), your mind automatically dismantles and explore its components. So you can get information about something that is overlooked by those in the normal.

2. You can know or detect or see people who lies on you.

3. When learning, you can make changes instantly. You can practice the lessons you've just absorbed, and able to make connections or associations between two or more things that are usually normal in people, looks like not related at all. Easy to understand explanations. You see the background information of non-verbal and this often provides a more comprehensive picture than what is spoken.

4. You think clearly with your conscious mind. Information completely submerged in your conscious mind without undue influence brought conscious mind.

5. Because your mind is very thorough and detailed about the things that are considered trivial by others, then you will be hard to explain verbally to others.

6. You will feel annoyed when listening to normal people because in your mind, that person explain about something that you think should have been explained a few hours earlier. So like, someone is talking is still up in the points A, while your thoughts have reached the point P.

7. You can find serenity and tranquility in learning about anything that related to science.

There is 2 conditions,

First,
people who have these symptoms but have low IQ or IQ is not enough to process all of information that can make that people crazy or mental retardation.

Second,
people who have these symptoms and have High IQ and IQ is enough or more than enough to process all of information, that people we usually called "Genius".




Source: http://www.dailyscience.info/2010/07/low-laten-inhibition-make-someone-looks.html


the bold statements are so true...